So tired. So crazy.

I've been sleeping a lot. Like a lot. Yesterday I never changed out of my pajamas.

Been nesting a lot too. Doing newborn laundry, setting up cribs, washing cars, strollers. Collecting feeding materials and begging for free stuff on the Pacifica Mothers Club email forum. Giving away and cleaning out stuff we don't need.

Eating lots, but not necessarily well. Lots of cookies mostly. Drinking lots of water. Taking lots of stool softeners. Joy.

Reading Storm of Swords (book 3 in Song of Ice & Fire Series, George RR Martin). This is one of the only things keeping me from going crazy in my head -  waiting and obsessing over my baby being born. If I don't read or watch movies and/or tv online I cannot clear my head of her. She is like an ever-present enigma haunting my every thought. It makes me feel like a lunatic. Every cramp I get in my body makes me jump to conclusions that it is time to start labor. But it never really is. So I sit on the couch or lay in bed when I can and stare at my phone, reading facebook, twitter, news, playing crosswords and other games, or I read and/or watch tv online (Vampire Diaries sometimes, like a airhead teenage sorority girl.)

And then there is Nova, my three-year-old. Of course I am taking care of her too. But Brett's been doing more and more for her and me so that I can rest. But she is nevertheless my first priority. I try so hard to be a good mom to her and keep her happy and entertained. Do I even have to say that? Hope it is a non-issue. I think I will take her to Hop N Play today after lunch.

Secretly: I wish my Mommy were here. And Brett's Mom too. I feel like they could help so much getting this house in order and keeping Nova occupied and me sane. But my mom cannot come until absolutely the last minute. And Brett's parents won't come until my mom is leaving, so as to prolong our having people around to help out with the new baby. So I just wait. And feel a bit lonely doing it all by myself. Obsessing I mean. I am utterly alone in my obsessive mommy brain.

Full Term Time!

Hi Readers,
A few days ago I reached "full term" pregnancy, meaning that at 37 weeks (out of the average 40), my baby is all the way developed and should be able to live comfortably outside the womb. So any day now we can expect her to make an appearance! According to the OB we saw last week, this baby is pretty small but "just the right size for my body" and her head is down and in a good position to be born. No other signs of labor though. They won't do a pelvic exam until maybe next week as those kinds of invasive procedures can unnaturally induce labor. But I am curious if my cervix is effacing. Last time I had a baby, I was effaced 80% two weeks prior to labor and my mucus plug fell out that early too (TMI, you say? Sorry, that sounds pretty gross, but it's all part of the game!) This time around, still no bloody show yet and I am two weeks from 40. So maybe I won't have these signs until right when everything goes down.

We wait....

Another thing - I did get a Group B Strep test last week and it came out positive. Here is a note from the OB:

Dear Jennifer,
Your Group B Strep (GBS) culture came back positive; you are a carrier for GBS at this time. This means that when you go into active labor, or after your water breaks, you will need antibiotics. I've included more information below. Please let me know if you have any questions.
Sincerely,
Robyn A Lamar

As long as I get those antibiotics, there is little risk that our baby will be infected. So no cause for alarm. I have read though, that one shouldn't wait too long to go to the hospital once labor has started. So maybe I won't dally at home where we planned to ride out much of the process. Cherlyn, my doula, should know this asap. I will tell her tonight.

Two days from now I go in for get an anti-stress test. That's something to do with blood pressure or something. They monitor the baby's heart for a while and do an ultrsound. I don't know if I need this. But I like ultrasounds! So I opted to get it done.

K. That's it for now. Like I said.... We wait....

All Pics Post! Getting ready to launch.

Guess which Vega is Which. 8 months vs 5 months. So cool that my sister and I are having babies so close togeher! Hers is a boy! Yay!


Nova was very helpful at the last Midwife Apt. She held the doppler so we could hear Baby's heartbeat.

 Daddy's Hands Making a Heart over Mommy's Belly. (photo courtesy Cherlyn Wagner)

Nova Wishing her Baby Sister a Merry Christmas.

(photo courtesy Cherlyn Wagner)

Brett and I on the Maternity Ward Tour at UCSF.

(photo courtesy Cherlyn Wagner)

Looking in at the Newborn Nursery at UCSF.

(photo courtesy Cherlyn Wagner)

Proud San Francisco Mom. (GG Park and Marin in background)

(photo courtesy Cherlyn Wagner)

The new mini crib my mom sent! I assembled it and Nova helped too.

Spending lots of quality time with my first baby, Nova. She will soon have to share my love. :( But also :) At Sabino Canyon, Tucson, AZ.